Its been 4 years since i had my first heart break and till now I'm still lurking on my ex's wall. Looking back, i was in a state of euphoria regardless of the distance (he lives in CA while i live here in PH).But, i ruined that ideal relationship. I was young, still immature and selfish then and it was too late for me to save that something ideal.
Though at times people won't believe me saying i already moved on. Srsly i already did. We had a serious talk on my birthday this year that made me cry and made me really happy. It felt so nostalgic, regrets was visible, pain was there especially when i heard some familiar songs but it's all in the past. For me Moving on and letting go is pretty different. You have to let go of the feelings before you can finally moved on. Honestly, it took me years to finally let go of that feelings. However, moving on is really the tough part in a relationship. It’s the way of leaving behind where you used to stand then oblivion crawls slowly and slowly heals the burden you might feel upon moving forward to a new phase of your life. I’ve been there and yet I still don’t know where I’m heading.. I keep on looking forward and tries not to look back cause I’m afraid that I might be locked up into that static and bleak past of mine.But still, there are times that i cant help my self to look back and feel that superfluous feelings.
Guess, i had enough!.
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