Have you ever?

Its been 4 years since i had my first heart break and till now I'm still lurking on my ex's wall. Looking back, i was in a state of euphoria regardless of the distance (he lives in CA while i live here in PH).But, i ruined that ideal relationship. I was young, still immature and selfish then and it was too late for me to save that something ideal.

Though at times people won't believe me saying i already moved on. Srsly i already did. We had a serious talk on my birthday this year that made me cry and made me really happy. It felt so nostalgic, regrets was visible, pain was there especially when i heard some familiar songs but it's all in the past. For me Moving on and letting go is pretty different. You have to let go of the feelings before you can finally moved on. Honestly, it took me years to finally let go of that feelings. However, moving on is really the tough part in a relationship. It’s the way of leaving behind where you used to stand then oblivion crawls slowly and slowly heals the burden you might feel upon moving forward to a new phase of your life. I’ve been there and yet I still don’t know where I’m heading.. I keep on looking forward and tries not to look back cause I’m afraid that I might be locked up into that static and bleak past of mine.But still, there are times that i cant help my self to look back and feel that superfluous feelings.

Guess, i had enough!.

short rant

I was staring at my assessment form for a couple of minute wishing it belongs to someone else. It was really my fault. No one told me to get 28 units this term and now i regret it BIG TIME!!!!!!! DARN schedules! Since the second term started i had been depriving myself of things. Hopefully i can still make it ;)

The mystery of TOBI

Have you read the latest update of naruto shippuden manga?Finally! Kabuto's triumph card has been revealed for months of guessing. I know lots of people were shocked, confused and excited to read the next update. Right now, Another big question is " WHO IS THE PERSON BEHIND BEHIND THE MASK :TOBI". A friend showed me this from a forum:

Tobi is a Zetsu clone Sometime before the 3rd great ninja war, The real Madara gave Nagato the Rinnegan(1). Madara then had white Zetsu copy him(2), just before the real Madara died. This zetsu clone became tobi; he had all the attributes of Madara, even his face(3). Tobi planned to use Nagato's Rinne Tensei for himself(4). When Kabuto summoned the real Madara, Tobi was scared and angry; he questioned where kabuto found it (implying that Tobi hid Madara's body)(5). Even though Tobi planned for the real Madara to be revived anyways, he was angry because Kabuto would have control of the revived Madara(6). When the real Madara was revived, he was not at all surprised, and he assumed that Nagato revived him, as if he planned it(7). (1) - http://www.mangafox.com/manga/naruto/v54/c509/4.html (2) - http://naruto.wikia.com/wiki/Substitute_Technique (3) - http://www.mangafox.com/manga/naruto/v44/c404/2.html (4) - http://www.mangafox.com/manga/naruto/v48/c453/17.html (5) - http://www.mangafox.com/manga/naruto/v52/c490/4.html (6) - http://www.mangafox.com/manga/naruto/v55/c520/13.html (7) - http://www.mangafox.com/manga/naruto/v59/c559/2.html

random rant

I am not all the way through the discomfort, yet. I still find myself naturally wanting to hide some parts of myself, in certain situations. I still find myself denying the truth of my own experience in an effort to greater fit in. Though I know this mask is ill-fitting, it is what I am used to wearing and to go out into the world without that mask is to experience life in a different way. A new and strange way. However, I am far enough through the discomfort to recognize that this is, simply, the process of coming out for me. I am far enough through the discomfort to understand that it is not discomfort with my identity, but rather with the sense that I am exposed, and this discomfort will go away as I become more comfortable exposing my reality.And in learning to accept and process the discomfort, I am finding within myself the power to be comfortable with myself. To interact with the world from a place of security. To feel as if the emotional structures I build are no longer houses of cards, but rather castles with strong foundations. To sit, calmly, and know that I am who I am and that is enough.Putting on makeup will not change that. Binding will not change that. Both of those are tools I can use to make myself look however I want to look on a given day, but they are not things that are necessary in order for me to feel that I present honestly, anymore. Because I am learning to love who I am inside and, in large part, disregard what I look like on the outside. My body is merely a shell, a home to decorate as I see fit, for the presence that is uniquely me.I’m still growing.

I’m still learning. I’m still stripping away layers of crap that has been dumped on me, and layers of defenses I’ve built haphazardly in my quest for self-protection. I still need to hear that the people I care about are proud of me. That they’re behind me. That they believe in me. I still need direction, sometimes, and a sounding board. For all that I’ve grown, I’m still only twenty two years old, and that is not really very old. I’m still unsure of a lot. And that’s okay.

Naruto Mania

I'm not well updated on what's going on with the series but i find this anime very very very amusing... The characters have their own different personalities that bring laughter to us viewers and followers. They entertained us in so many ways. Just few months ago when i indulge myself on watching Naruto since i was sorrounded by hords of naruto fanatic and i felt left out.. LOL .. since i love chibi photos .Chibi is a japanese word that means "short person or child" but in the world of anime it has the same meaning but they turn the anime into short and cute characters just like what you've seen below

THE UCHIHA BROTHERS

TEAM KAKASHI/ TEAM 7

GAARA AND NARUTO

The Blushing Hinata

THE LEGENDARY SANIN

credits: some photos are copied from deviantart and google

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WELCOME to my new precious blog! Blogging for me is an escape from this irksome life i have. This is a place to rant about my daily life, my ups and downs and of course some my random thoughts. I love photography, mythology, witchcarft, butterflies and chocolates. .. I'm not outspoken and words can be heard to the limitations of my senses and i don't trust anyone that's the reason why i would prefer writing my thoughts